enjoying

I am sitting here enjoying life free of medications. We have been spending time with each other and friends and family. Do not get me wrong I am still sad at times but it is different. I am not thinking about it every day, all day. It is far easier to focus on the good things we have. I know that is the back of my mind I have one more cycle of IVF pending. Part of the reason it stays in the back of my mind, is because I do not want to face the thought of dealing with it failing too. I do not want to deal with this emotions and sadness. It may work, but there is no guarantee and at this point I like being myself again.